Just because..

12 09 2010

I don’t blog, doesn’t mean I am dead, lazy, busy.

It just means that I blog mostly whenever I’m depressed; and I have probably exhausted all other outlets of releasing my feelings to anyone at all.

I have completely lost my focus in life. Aimless is how I feel from time to time. Too much setbacks in life can really take a toll on one’s soul. Being scrutinized constantly on almost every single thing on a daily basis can be quite stressful to my head. It’s like my life is one big mistake and there seems to be no way to rectify it at all.

Heck, I don’t even know how to end this post either.




29 05 2010

I never believed in making resolutions. Probably because I procrastinate more often than I should. Looking back at the times I spent needlessly do almost nothing at all scares me, literary.

Keeping fit, catching up with friends and relatives, taking care of my wife and mum, concentrating on my studies, working for a better life (present and future), staying faithful to my religion, spending quality time with my pet dog and more plans in-the-making.

Humans are simple creatures capable of having complicated lives.

A simple life would be going through a general education so as to secure a job that pays decently with a bearable amount of workload. Meeting someone that shares that same viewpoint of leading a simple life, to fall in love with that someone and get married to them. The next step in a simple life would be to have children that would most likely go through the same cycle of lives that their parents are leading and eventually, to retire with enough time and money to enjoy the remainder of our earthly lives before we ascend to a (hopefully) place with higher calling.

While a complicated life would be trying to equip oneself with life skills for the future while we are young and to get enrolled into an elite school at almost every stage of our academic lives to receive the best education that the country can offer. If one is hopeful, a scholarship comes along the way as a form of bonus. Having MNCs or government sectors to knock on our doors to offer positions that one can hardly reject. Marrying the dream partner of our choice plus, coupled with the best DNA you think you could ever have, to produce one of the most intelligent and beautiful child (or children) in your so called ‘perfect world’. And lastly, to build your very own empire and retire with a legacy for the next generation because by then, you probably would have the financial capability of allowing your children to achieve any and every dream they desire to, thus kick starting their very own complicated life.

There are a handful whose choices may defer from the above two scenarios, however they are just only a handful. Having said that, there will be times when people leading with a simple or complicated life may look on with envy at these handful, but it really is a classic case of ‘the grass is always greener on the other side’.

Having mentioned all that, I wonder what should my resolution be.

Sigh, God help.

I finally..

12 05 2010

..Washed and changed my bed sheets
..Cleared cookie’s (my dog) litter area
..Did laundry
..Brought cookie out for a walk
..Washed her mouth paws ass & pussy
..Re-did the laundry because I had put too much powder
..Made fried rice without adding extra oil
..Washed the dishes
..Cleared out the trash bags
..Replaced the trash bins
..Swept the floor of my room
..Made my beds (yes, I have 2 of them)

Most importantly, I finally blogged.

What can I say?

I am so darn lazy.

The Life After Death

17 01 2010

I’ve just receive news that someone I knew have passed away after battling with cancer. To be honest, I’m sad about it. One person’s journey on earth has ended and I wasn’t really sure if he had any unfulfilled aspirations.

And as I pondered about life and death on my journey back home, my mp3 player played Corriene May’s Fly Away, followed by Pet Shop Boy’s Go West. What iorny. I hope it really is peaceful over there.



1 01 2010

Time flies so fast, it has been 10 years since I graduated from secondary school. There were so many situations that I never could have imagined coming across, but I did.

Looking back at what the younger generations are currently capable of doing, I must admit that there are a lot of potential in them – to believe in their dreams and to chase them. As long as their hearts are still as pure as they once were, they can pretty much achieve it. I hope that I did not take 10 years of my life and waste it. Neither do I wish to see anyone waste theirs.

In comparison to the rest of the people I know, I’m not really that old. However, it’s a sign when I see my peers knocking out that easily during festive seasons that I’ll start to feel physically older in the few years to come. I wonder what will be my views in life then? Hopefully I’ll still be blogging so I can look myself, in a different live of light.

Here’s to everyone and anyone – Seasons greetings and a happy new year 🙂

Re-education 101

23 12 2009

Rearing a pet has never been easy, aquiring the knowledge to rear them is harder.

Enough said, let’s continue with the lessons shall we..?

The Journey Back Home

11 12 2009

The journey back home is one long ride.

Deep in thoughts as I pondered on.

Flashbacks of the day I see them.

As though I am reliving in it.

All over once again.

No more

Is what I wish to myself.

The vicious cycle never ends.

Who am I kidding.

No one.

But me.